I've lost myself to the war within
The ever burning flame of death and destruciton
There are things here that I cannot comprehend
And forces which are unfathomable to me

I wait, hoping for revelation
But to no avail shall my mind persevere
For my heart is betrayed
And the very essence of the soul
Is wrought with pestilence

The putrescence is everpresent
And while my core is torn
I cannot deny my one true thought
The envy of my phantasmal shadow

It is fought, the war
Neither side taking presidence
Yet both making headway
Towards destruction of all

All of me


I cannot take the burning
Cannot withstand the pain
It resides within me
And shan't leave for it feels at home

I am determined
But my resolve fades
And the patience once known
Has diminished immaculately

Miniscule shreds of the first
Have survived the aftermath
But more over has the new begun
And unleashed its fury upon me

I am no more myself
And I cannot undo the horror
That fills me to brimming
With terror and tears

I have wished to the stars
And prayed to the heavens
Made offerings to sun
And howled to the moon
And it is not enough

My sanity whirls upon a thread
Loosely caught in the winds of time
Where upon it might fall
And be torn asunder

It nearly has been
Several times within the ages past
But none know of my torment
Save the voice within my thoughts

And it listens not
For it repeats it's words
Once more in chorus
Hoping to be heard



Why can't I be loved?